Ryan Adams booked (:
Annoying though as he’s playing the same day as The Kills, which I only went to find out when I was about to click “pay” and caught it in time.
Back on the blustery train tomorrow..back to running away and then hiding and trying to pretend everything’s fine. Back to “being quiet”, while everybody else does the oposite.
Can’t you hear the excitement buzzing from my typing fingers?….
thought not.
So we wake to this new morning with Manchester City ready to change into world beaters? Well maybe in a few seasons as it’s only a couple of weeks ago they lost to Villa 4-2 and played shit in Europe. Only one player so far remember?
Pretty hooked to Fucked Up’s - No Epiphany and The Walkmen’s - In The New Year. Pretty hot tracks..i’m sure i’m late on hearing both aha.
Must order Ryan Adams tickets for Brixton later. Oh yeashhhhhhh.
Really need to sort out what I want to do with my sites..as I kinda despise Myspace (where I got the core of my “fans”) and hate going on there so much and Youtube can be a joke too. Both are full of “mememememememe! look at me!!” The way bands are whoring themselves is sickening and i’ve been guilty of it in the past..why I take a back seat now
My site? well it has no direction yet, I need to find it some. The whole idea of why I made it was to put songs up as I recorded them and have a whole archive of my tunes up there, but that hasn’t happened yet.
Do you know whats fucking awesome about this site? No comments! Ha!
i’m so bored of reading comments on either www.nme.com/news or youtube from negative brats who have nothing better to do!
Like example..
you see a gig advertised “he says it’s the worst gig he’s ever played”
Which you know will be followed with
“He’s played a good one?”
or..
“he only plays shit gigs, he’s shit aint he”
oh man! if you have something bad to say shut up! I DO NOT CARE, what you think of my favourite band, or whatever..freedom of speech on the internet is a fucking nightmare when it comes to those shitty little comments. Go to www.nme.com/news and click on an item with lots of comments and see the retarts flock like flies to shit!
EDIT: oh my god i saw on ryan adams blog you can leave notes????!?? please dont!!!
Being ill suckkks. But what’s worse? Being bored at the same time! It’s crazy how 90% of people who know me online, don’t know i’m ill!
“are you doing a show soon? …
next time your in my area i’ll come see you play” ..
Yeah sure! right on!
Little is known that i’m sick and this is why I don’t do shows anymore, well for now..it gets quite tiring to pretend to them and it’s not like I ever lie though..I just don’t tell them as THEY DON’T ASK.
Frustration is a major fuck off factor. All my life i’ve wanted to do something so bad but had this obstacle. I wanted to be a footballer, but not being able to run fucks that up?! Then a musician..and it was going so well, then..BOOOM.
It’s shit crazy going from an 18 year old attracting attention from major labels and small indies and having it all mapped out and…BOOM. Always a ticking bomb, doesn’t let you know when it’s gonna explode. I doubt i’ll ever come to terms with it and i’m so sick of lying.
I’ve grown a ir/rational(?) fear of becoming what I used to hate, the band or artist who was liked by their friends and they’re “really good” but not. You know, good as in , good if they’re your friends, but not good as…fuck me, best band in the world.
And i always stop! in 2003-2004 i didn’t make much music and gave up as yet another of my bands dispanded and the major label phone went dead. Then in 2005 I was re-woken and the Good Golly bullshit started and more label shit happened then i gave up again after another band break up! UGH! pattern?! So the end of year or next year I should kick back into business? Who knows…
